Nfiasdssdh! Will you people stop asking me to ask me questions?! It freaks me out! Also if you would be so kind as to STOP asking me questions that would be nice. :)
I hate when guys ask me “Can I ask you something?” it freaks me out because the majority of the time it leads to them asking me out -_- I’m not trying to sound conceded or narcisisstic or any other form of self absorbery (if thats even a word) thats just how I feel. I guess I’m just use to being alone just thinking that someone wants to be with me seems unreal there for freaks me out. Either way someones gonna get hurt and I’d rather it not be me which is why I tend to not get attached to any particular person which in turn I get called “emotionless” “heartless” and “emotionally detached”. They’re all true. Well not so much the heatless one (or at least not in my opinion). We all have fears, mine just so happens to be getting emotionally hurt. Physically hurt is fine, it happens to me all the time, and boy do I have the scars to prove it. I’ve even been told I have a high tolerance for pain. Though thats just physical pain. Emotional pain is a completely different thing. It can have you hating everything making you the most unpleasant person to be around. Its hard to escape considering its made up of mostly memories. Memories can creep up on you even though you’d be nowhere near to thinking of them. Worst of all is when you’re trapped in a place(s) where every corner or every hallway or every room brings back a memory you wish you could forget. Thats where I am.
For something I’m not a stanger to I still have a hard time doing it. Rejecting someone is hard.
Right, and then just a few days ago hes all telling me that he cant stop thinking about Heidy. Seriously why would I go out with someone who “loves” my sister??
Ahh. well like i guess….like head towrd being boy friend girl friend. see if i guess we could or would work
Nothing is so much wrong. i just have a question for you. ahh this may sound weird but, i was thing, maybe we should take are relationship a little further.
Maybe Heidy is right. Maybe I have to start being mean. I just dont think I can do it. Just because someones sympathetic towards you because they feel bad for you so they decide to treat you nice, DOESNT mean they like you.
My dream: i had a dream that i was in a white room with no walls. and i could see people i have know and loved from my past, and i ran at them and when i got close they disapear. and i just kept running and runny, and then i saw you, and i stoped. i was afriad you would disapear.but, you started comming towered me, and grabed me by the arm and said, “i wont leave” then you hugged me.
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